Because of you ...

“I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never strayed too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never strayed too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid … …

- Kelly Clarkson”


I was hit by a great emotion …

I was down …

unsure …

wondering …

but I am still hopeful of finding my right person one day …

In the past, I've learned the hard way to love myself more and not to cause my heart so much misery.

And now, I am learning not to play on the safe side and try to trust you more

I really don’t wish to cry and forced to fake a smile, a laugh everyday of my life anymore …



I want to be happy ... and why do I feel this way all of the sudden?


Maybe I am lonely?!

or maybe I was sick this whole week?!



I am sure I will be fine ...

and yes, I will be fine soon ...