Day 21

What have I "gained"?!


2 persons ...


my beloved baby - bebe bebe ... Love you ...


my close colleague cum friend cum "sister" ...


should be 3 hor ... get one free one hehehe ...


Miss you Dar ... see you in Singapore SOON ...

Day 20

=)

really excited to see how Dar looks like now ... fit liao? fat liao? slim sliao? ...


But before Dar is back, a "nightmare" has started ... haiz ... =(

I had been fearful about this for the last 19 days ... it really happened ...


Dar's Starhub handphone bill ...

I dun want to think about it ...

I just want to see the fact .. concrete fact ...


If this is really the case, we will have to pay for it ...

Sorry Dar ... because of me, you need to pay SO MUCH ... =(

Day 19

Wow time really flies ... I cant believe it also ...


Anyway, dar comments that this blog is like a notice board to him ... having messages to him ...

Of course, it is your notice board ...

I want you to know how I feel when you are not with me ...

How I miss you ... and how important you are to me ...

especially after going through ups and downs with you ...

You are someone worth waiting for ...


Muack ... love you ... =)

Day 18

Counting down ...

7 more days ...

yeah ...

Dar dar will be back ...


I really miss you alot ... really ...

See you soon ok ... at the meantime, take good care of yourself ... muack ...

Day 17

Yeah ... Yeah ... Yeah ... =))))

one more week ... my dar is coming back ...

miss you so much my bao bei ...

muack ...

muack ...

Day 16

25 Nov 2006 ...

Happy 1 mth anniversary dar ...

Love you ...


I will be responsible to you in my thoughts and in my actions ...

so trust me ... we will definitely have a future ahead ... if we put in effort ...


Muack ...

See u in 9 more days ...

Day 15

Yeah ...

I am cleared .... =) ... for NOW ... =( ... hahaha ...


Anyway, really great to chat with dar dar last night ...

It really gives me a better understanding of where our relationship stands at this point of time ...

I am so happy that I am cleared and we can plan for our future ...

So whatever decision I make, I will definitely let my dar know ...

as this is what RELATIONSHIP is all about ...


Love you and see you in 10 days' time ...

Day 14

Today is an important day to me ...

I hope it would lead to a better future ...

I really dun wish to lose my family ... my newly found "jie jie" and of course, my dar dar zhuzhu ...

Definitely not now ...


*paranoid again huh ... hahaha ...


Anyway, dar gave me a surprise call just now lor ...

never expect he will call me at this hour ...

Love you ...

Day 13

I must agree that I am not a GOOD boyfriend ...

but I will try my best to become one ...

to be less selfish ...

not so mean ...

care and love my dar more ...


11 more days ... and I wont give up as already half way through ...

Sorry for saying those stupid things to you ...

Love you ...

Muack ...

Day 12

Yeah ... 12 more days ...

I have been counting down and waiting for Dec 4 to be here ...


Anyway, just checked my mobile bill ...

thought there would be a great increase in amount for this month's bill ...

but still the same leh ... although number of SMS sent did increase ... :P


It doesn't matter to me ... as long as I can tok to dar ... this means alot to me ...

Just want to say, sorry for being paranoid and stress over the results ... bear with me ok dar ...


Ai ni ...

Day 11

Finally ... two digits number ... haha ...

Day 11 ...

13 more days ... =)

Yesterday Dar did a thing which he should never have done it at the first place but he did ...

and this really makes me feel so touched and very important ... =P


Thank you baby ...

Love you ... muack

Day 10

2 more weekends ... yeah ... dar will be back ...

I really have no mood to do anything if dar is not with me in Singapore ...

besides going to work and maintaining the normal daily routine ...
I don't wish to go anywhere or do anything ...

Maybe it is also because of my blood tests ... I am worried and scared to lose my dar ...
I dont wish to leave the world now ...


You will NEVER experience LOVE until you have experienced heartbroken ...

Very, very true ...

Love you very much dar ...

Day 9

Time really flies ...

Dar has been away for 9 days ...

but never mind, counting down to the day Dar is coming back ...


If one day, you are leaving before me ...
I don't think I will survive either ...

Then I rather choose to be the one leaving you first ...
as I cant bear to see you leave ...


Love you dar ...

Day 8

1 third of 24 days ...

Yeah ...

16 more days ...
2 weeks and 2 days ...

*Next week, I will get my medicial result ...


Miss you so much ...

Heng xiang ni ... ni zhi dao ma ...

Love you ...

Day 7

Baby, I PROMISE you ...

1. I will try not to make you cry for me anymore ...
2. I will never give up / don't want you because of any small little thingy ...
3. I will stay true to you and love you as much as I love myself ...
4. I will never do anything wrong to hurt / spite you during a disagreement

Signed off ...

Your ZhuZhu

Day 6

Yes, we had cleared many doubts during the past few days ...

and we trust each other more now ... =)


Communication is very important and I truly believe in that ...
and it is so sweet of dar to sms or call me everyday ... =)


I hope we can be as loving as ever ...

anyway, I decide to bring forward my medical test to today ...

Hope God will keep watch over me ... *cross my fingers ...

Day 5

Feeling better now ... ...

I must get well soon ...

so my dar wont get worried about me

and of course, I also need to take care of my dar ...

If I am sick, how to take care of dear dear leh ... =)


Anyway, this is the SMS dar dar sent to me this morning ...

My feeling towards you is as strong as yours towards me, or even stronger than you. I know you always feel insecure but I will be patient and slowly let you know that my feelings towards you will never change.


Thanks dar ... muack ...

Day 4

sick ...

body sick ...

love sick ...

mental sick ...

miss you dar ...

how I wish you are here with me now ...

Day 3

As days go by, the fear of losing my dar is growing stronger ...


but we had a chat last night ... one hour chat ...

which would cost us about 34 Sing dollars ... ex hor ...


anyway, we promise each other not to think / worry too much ...

have confident in one another ...

stay faithful to each other ...


Thanks dar for giving me security and confidence to be with you ...

love you and miss you ...
3 weeks more ... =)

Day 2

I used to be independent, but no longer anymore ...

I used to be "strong", but no longer anymore ...


since the day you appeared in my life, everything started to change ...

I am happier ...

I look forward to the days we are meeting up ...

I dream of you ... though it is a bad dream most of the times ... ...


Not that I am ill-treated by you, but maybe it is the FEAR of losing you ...

Losing someone important and dear to me ...


I love you and will wait for you to start another new chapter of our life together ... muack ...

Day 1

Yes, yesterday was the 9th day ... ...

A total different feeling at all ...

A feeling like someone dear is going away ...


True enough, he is leaving for Australia ... will only be back 24 days later ...


We had dinner @ Fish & Co, Parkway Mall, last night ...

A bunch of kiddos spoilt our lovely evening ... but nvm, dun wish to tok about it ...


We went to have cable car ride @ HarbourFront ... :)

Thereafter, proceeding on to our secret dating place ...


Knowing dar dar is leaving today makes me feel so sad that I cant help tearing ...

*sob sob ...

8 days every week ...

I had been meeting dar dar for 8 consecutive days ...

since the day I had my oral surgery ...


Honeymoon period?! ...
nah ... I dont believe in this ...


I simply miss him ...
and will continue to miss him for the next 24 days ...

I cried ...

Dar Dar drove to my place yesterday ...

just to see me ...

We went shopping and thereafter, to our secret dating place ...


I really don't know why ...

Listening to the songs, hugging dar dar in my arms and I started tearing ...


Maybe dar dar is leaving this Firday ...

the thought of not having dar dar around gets on my nerves ...

24 days ....

I will miss dar dar ...

kheng ...

Both my dear and I start to kheng liao ...

kheng not to show that we miss each other and afraid of losing each other ...

but every action and thought shows them all ...


Maybe my baby is leaving this Friday ...

we have alot of uncertainities and doubts ...
we dont know what will happen when my baby is back ...

so we kheng our feelings lor ...


but one thing for sure, I want to see my baby when he is back ...

and help him wear his precious necklace ...

this is the thing I want to do ... ;)

My dear will be away ...

yes, my dear will be away for 24 days ...

=( I will miss my dear ...

I thought I may have to look at our photos every now and then to kill my xiang si zhi ku ...

but he gave me something last night for safekeeping ... a necklace which his godma bought for him as a 21st birthday present ...


=)

Anyway, I will wait for him and stay true for him ...

and I hope everything will be the same when he is back ... *cross my fingers

I dreamt ...

I had a dream last night ...

Sometimes, dream could be so real that you thought it was the reality ...

Anyway, I dreamt that my dear was gone and I was looking around for another suitable person ...

I was so scared ...

But after I woke up and seeing dear sleeping besides me ... my fear was all gone and I felt happy that I had actually found the right guy ... =)

Scare the HELL out of my life ...

I went over to dear's place to stay over the weekend ...

We were on the way home when his reporting officer (Mum) called ... She finished mahjong early today so we drove to pick her up ...

When she was in the car, she sounded displeased asking why I was here again ...
I thought she was pretty unhappy seeing me again ... she even padded on my head while asking me ...

this was where I felt abit upset ... or maybe angry ...
Anyway, I told dear about this and he told me saying that his RO will only do this (padding) if she feels comfortable with that person ... *What a relief ... =)


Being together is not a two people's business ... it involves the loved ones around us ...

no matter whether his RO likes me anot, I tell myself that I will not give up easily ...
I will endure for my dear ... and to make the things RIGHT ... =D

shopping time ...

so happy today ... went shopping with my dear dear ...

I could not imagine we had bought so many things today ...

Never know that both of us are shopping king ... hehehe ...


Really happy and enjoy every moment with my dear dear ... hope this will last forever ...

Love you ...

Going to bed soon ... as going breadfast with dear dear and friends in 8 hours' time ... =)

Oral surgery yesterday

I went for my oral surgery yesterday ...

to extract 6 teeth ...

4 wisdom teeth and 2 extra teeth ...


My dear took off to accompany me ... =D

I could not imagine how scare and boring I would be if my dear was not with me ...

Everything went smoothly ... not much pain and bleeding ...
I even had porridge with my dear after that ... although I still needed to chew it slowly ...


Anyway, I felt so happy and lucky to have my dear with me ...

Thanks dear ... =)