I will SURVIVE ...

I thought of leaving this posting blank, just with the heading will do but hey, I changed my mind ...


I didn't have a good LNY, perhaps the worst out of so many years.

Many unhappinesses and worries in my mind last night that caused me to have the thought of ending them once and for all ... ...

It is so miserable and difficult that you don't have the support of your beloved ones, though you really need them badly and at the back of your head, you may still hope that a mircule will happen anyway. Haiz ...

But I guess all these happen for a reason and will definitely make me stronger.
I believe I will be able to survive ... and I am sure about it ...

To all my friends:
Love yourself more and you can SURVIVE ...

Lunar New Year ...

When it comes to festive holidays, you will tend to receive many, many SMSes to wish you the best of luck ...


I choose the best two to share with you ... =)


*Dog Dog Chiang, Dog Dog Chiang, Dog Dog Chiang Dog Chiang Dog Chiang'*
May this year of the WoW-WoW brings u GOOD HEALTH, HAPPINESS n PROSPERITY!


(Translated from mandarin)
*In this coming year, I wish you have a GOOD BOD, pocket FULL OF $$, plentiful of HAPPINESS and no worries just like BABY. So HAPPY NEW YEAR!*

Gong xi Gong xi ...

Wow ... so fast ... it is Lunar New Year again ...


Nothing great though when you are growing older except the fact that you are collecting ang pows if you are still single =D


Anyway, I didn't really start a brand new lifestyle during the ang mo New Year ...

So I hope I can do it during my cheena New Year ... All the best to me and work hard =)


Gong xi gong xi ... ... =P

Tiring ...

I guess I should rest more these few days ... ... if not, once I embark on my new journey next month, I will be very busy ... =)



Anyway ... ...


have you ever wondered if one day, you are dieing or you are in a coma because of a sudden accident, WHO will you like to see for the last time or WHO will you like to have by your bedside?


For this, I have decided to write up a list ... though it may sound silly, strange or even SIAO, but I hope I won't have the regret of not meeting the closed ones before I leave this world.

I found it!

Yeah ... so happy ... after 10 days and I found it ...


Had a long chat with my boss in the evening ... I got to know him better ... it was a good start and it would definitely help us in the future ...


Anyway, what is my purpose in life?!



It is to BE SUCCESSFUL ... ...

Waiting ...

I really don't like to wait ... but guess patience is a virtue mah


Anyway, I have given my reply and now waiting for his call to meet again ...

Tiramisu on 5 - Finale

Haiz ... Tonight is the last episode of Tiramisu .. ...

this is the last thing I wish to see happening ... but I guess all good things will eventually come to an end ... this goes without saying for Tiramisu so I need to accept it lor ...


Tiramisu has given me alot of unforgettable and touching Tuesday nights ... my favourite star Sharon Au and of course, the handsome hunk who were acting in the show ... =) therefore, I could foresee in the coming weeks, I will be bored and sian ... ...



Anyway, no point of being upset ... here is the recap which I will always like to remember ...


Both Marcus and his dad had not been talking for 3 years since the day Marcus chose Nicole over the family business ...

Nicole decided to make the first move to call Marcus' dad ... ...

At this time, Marcus had made a name for himself and his dad was very proud of him ... ... His dad finally accepted Marcus and Nicole ... =)


Louis and Daniel finally got together at their fourth marriage ceremony .... ... it was because Louis had been changing her mind at the very last minute for the last 3 ceremonies.

Louis: "I really need you in my life ... ... "
How sweet ... =)


As for Step and his mum, they started to become closer after his mum was no longer a celebrity chef. This was also the time when Sharon was back from her overseas cooking course.

Both thought each had their own date and therefore, decided to move on with their lifes. But these were all misunderstandings and of course, they were back together, happily ever after ...

Sharon:

"Will you like to hire me to work in your restaurant for the rest of my life?! ...

We need to create a world of our own, a combination of my world and yours! ... ... "


Awwwww so so sweet ... what is yours, it will be yours ... so where is mine?! =D

Everything goes well ... ...

I guess so ... ...


Need to talk to a few more people before deciding ... ...


If this is mine, it will be mine mah ... I hope so ... ... =)

Rejected ... ...

I was called up by a recruit agency yesterday for a 2nd interview - to meet the director.



I was quite hestiated and confused when I was on the phone with its manager as never did I expect that I would be asked to go back the 2nd time.



After pausing for a while, thinking through how the 1st interview was like, the working environment, etc. , I decide to reject it.

Perhaps some of you may ask me to go for the 2nd interview as no harm trying though ... ... I guess no point wasting both parties' time as they could give this chance to a more suitable and better interviewee so I gave it a miss. But in the bottom of my heart, I really hope I have made the right choice by rejecting it.



As for the job recommaneded by Shu Shu, still no news leh ... haiz ... maybe it is not mine ... though I like the nature of the job but HE may think otherwise mah ...



Anyway, I will be going for an interview this afternoon ... hope it is the one ...

May God bless me ...

Hopefully ...

Yeah ... Thanks Shu Shu ...


I have already sent my resume over ... The rest is up to YOU ... PLEASE ...

I suck @ BALLS ...

hahaha wahahaha ...


Isaac, Huijia, Bryan and I went to play pool yesterday night ... opps to be exact, and this morning ... hahaha


We had fun, catching up and playing pool. They all played well except me. =) But anyway, it was still a fun and relaxing night ... ...

When going home ... ...

I took the 2nd cab in the queue while Isaac took the 1st. When I got in, I told the taxi uncle where I was heading and we started a conversation since he looked like a friendly person to me.

I told him that I took his cab because my friend saw his electronic signboard, saying "Change shift - Jurong" and that is where my home is. Then this was where he started to sound weird or perhaps I just couldn't accept his openness at his age. =P

He asked me whether Isaac and I were an item. I told him NO and we are just friends. He carried saying it is very normal and all right that guy likes guy and gal likes gal. He then he said he lives near me and how come he never sees me before. He even said he may knock off after sending me back if there was no passenger on the road ... ...

After this weird chatting, I felt something was not right ... the tone and the eye contacts ... I decided to close my eyes to rest so to end our conversation politely. But when I opened my eyes occassionally to check whether I was reaching soon, he would start to have small conversation like "are you tired ... " .

I know I am a charmer that is too hard to be resisted ... hahahaha ... *puke* ... but you are so old and I am so young ... if you want to hook up somebody, don't you think you should get someone your age ... hahaha opps me so bad hahahaha ...

Thanks God ... it is Saturday ...

Hope Huijia and Issac wont fly me kite today ... =D


So many unhappiness this week ... SOOOOOOOOOOOO demoralising ...


Hope to have fun ... YEAH! ...

Singlehood ...

If you are single, you yearn to be attached ... ...


If you are attached, you would like to be single ... ...


So contridicting ... haiz ... ...


If you are dating one, you like to date a few more ... ...


If you are dating a few, you hope you are dating one so you won't need to choose ... ...


So greedy huh ... ... humans ... ...

Extend a helping hand ...

You will be more blessed if you GIVE than you RECEIVE!

I guess it goes the same to help others than to be helped.


I was asked by Issac to help him out in school today. His class was having swimming lesson and he needed volunteers to look after the kids when swimming in the pool.


I wasn't sure at first whether I could handle them anot so I hestitated to give him an answer till yesterday. I was really happy that I went. To me, they are just like normal children, who can be notti at times. But they are just kids and you can't expect much from them. If I get to choose, I will rather mix around with them as adult world is much too complicated and you will get hurt anytime.


I felt quite sad when I was seeing them out at the end of the day where their parents came to pick them up. Perhaps I was already emotionally attached to them. =( Before they left for home, some of them even asked me whether I will be coming tomorrow or next week. I could not give them an answer straightaway because I am still looking for a job now. But I can be sure for one thing, I will definitely be helping the society once I have settled down with a job. It is the least I can do for this world. =)

**Issac, you are doing very well and way to go! Don't let others f*** your mind ... f*** theirs instead!

Tiramisu is back ...

It is hard not to have regrets in life ... as all humans are imperfect.


Just have to cross our fingers and hope the % of having regrets in our life will be the lowest ...


I am sure I will have my fair share of regrets but please God, please ... Let me have my fair share of love as well, even though it is wrong in your eyes ...


Haiz ... Next week is the last episode of Tiramisu ...
But never mind, Desperate Housewives is coming back =D

Free man liao ...

I am FREE ... dunno whether it is GOOD or BAD ...


I will see how God will lead me from here ...

21 days cultivate a hobby ...

Time really flies ...


It is time for me to start a brand new life ... a new way of living ...
so I guess I need to start somewhere and someday ...


Perhaps today is just the right day ...


You can change for a day, 2 days or a week ... but can you maintain this way?!
It is the determination whether you want to do it anot ...


I hope I can do it ... and will do it ... but provided I am given another chance ... =)

I don't believe ...

I don't believe in love ...


I don't believe in anyone ...


I only believe in God and myself ...

Our meeting just now ...

One word ... DISAPPOINTED ...


everything was ok ... nice person ... nice look ...


but not wanting to rush into a relationship ...
as bad encounter last time ...
don't wish to go through the same thingy again ...
currently looking for friends ... ...


Perhaps I guess that person is not ready ... and I respect the decision ...

Easy or not?!

It is not difficult to know a person better, but it is not easy to know him with your heart ... ...



It is easy to accept one's strengths but it is not easy to accept one's faults / weaknesses ... ...



There is always regret when it comes to love ...


Love plays a joke on you ...

You like someone but he is apparently not a local and he is staying overseas ... ...

Or if he is staying in Singapore, he is currently not available (attached) ... ...

What is this? A joke or what? haizz ... ...

Love really plays a joke on me ...

It is always good to be able to choose.


You can choose the best; the most expensive, the most comfortable ... ... whatever and whichever suits your tastes / likings.


But it is not necessarily the case when it comes to LOVE matters, especially in my case.



Love plays a joke on me and it is only the beginning of a brand new year.

In 2005, I felt sad and lousy, trying my best to get over my past relationships, thinking I could be independant and focus on my career in 2006 for love is just only a small portion of life


I don't wish to think so much as apparently, this L wont come knocking on my door that easily as I am not a Prince Charming or a hunky boy-next-door.

I tried so hard to get used to my singlehood and I am happy with my life now. But these few persons just appeared out of nowhere ... they are all very nice people ...

I must say humans are greedy and we tend to get the best out of everything. I am no exceptional. I will like to know all of them better but am just afraid that I may hurt someone during the process of "dating".


What should I do?!

It is because I think too much? Or it is because I am simply too depesrate?
Or it is because I fall in love easily? ... ...


I really don't know ... I just hope my heart can tell me an answer ...


Haiz ... Love really plays a joke on me ... ...

Silence is golden?!

Yes, indeed ...



Always be fast to listen but slow to speak ...
It is always good to think twice before you say something.
By doing so, you will not only "digest" what has been said / discussed, you will also not get yourself into trouble easily by saying the wrong words.

However, being silence doesn't mean you shouldn't put a firm stand on what you believe or think it is right. It is not you being a pushover but it is only correct for you to put your message across and make your presence felt.



Though we have the freedom to speak up, but enough is enough.
More doesn't mean good and less doesn't mean no good.

For example, when one has a misunderstand or has done something wrong, one may try very hard to work his way out by explaining alot.
This not only shows you are guilty of what has happened but also shows you are a coward who dares not say sorry ... (Just admit and apologise ... )

And when you are just trying too hard, you may simply talking about the same thing over and over again ... this shows insincerity in your explaination and you will defiinitely bore those who are listening to you explaining ...

Aaaaaa ... ... silence is still golden? Hmmm ... ... Yes, I still think so!

Not again ...

Did I slim down again ...

={ ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ..

... ...

"You need to let your past settle down, then you will be able to see your future clearly ... "

*Stay focus and look forwards ... everyone has a past and no one can change the future except U!



"I can't fall in love because I am ill. I lose the ability to love and be loved. I am unable to commit myself just like the rest ..."

*So sad ... Therefore, treasure yourself and live your life to the fullest. Never have regrets in life (hopefully) and don't let your close ones cry for you ...

Adding onto my list ...

1. ...
2. ...
3. ...
4. Eat properly and timely ... don't skip meals ...
5. *Donate generously ... as the sick needs our help ... (provided I have a job)

**Reality hits me AGAIN.

In this world, it is not only about love, lust, revenge, money, sex ... ..., but it is also about giving and donating. The act and the speech of the Ren Ci chairman really touches me every year.

I want to do something for the society ... I really do ... ...

Sidetrack: I guess some flirting won't do any harm, right ... hahaha ...

Work harder ...

Can't imagine all my gal friends who are of my age are either married, pregnant or have already given birth ... ...



How about me? My life have not even started yet ... Haiz ...

Must work harder to fulfill my 2006 resolutions ...

1. Sleep early each day [11.00 pm for weekdays and 12 mn for weekends ... opps it is already so late now ... hahaha ...] =)
2. Take public transportations ... no cab ...
3. Exercise daily ... to keep FIT ...

Work hard, Jason!!! WORK HARD!!!

What will you do ...

If you are in a meeting, which you don't wish to attend at all because:

1. it is boring;
2. you were tired from last night's partying;
3. this meeting is chaired by someone whose attitude you simply don't like (sucks BIG time);
4. ... ...

what will you do to pass time?!

• eat something, be it a sweet or chips (if allowed, of course), so:

1. to keep you awake to listen to what one has to say so you can give your inputs anytime when being asked;
2. to stop you from saying something you should not say;

• appreciate others' clothings and learn from them how they dress;
• be observant; look at each individual's facial expressions / movements and you will notice some very interesting chemistry ... hahaha

Be a man ...

This is what my buddy will always say to me ... and of course, in a very funny way ... wahahaha ...



Anyway, yes, BE A MAN! But sad to say, nowadays, most guys cant do it ... regret every single thing they have said earlier on and trying their best to talk their way out ... don't even want to say the BIG S word when they are at faults ... wishy washy, worse than gals ...

Big ego faggots ... What the F***! On top of that, they show attitudes and trying to act macho and as if they don't care about things by using words like "Whatever" or "Up to you lah"... but I am sure in their heart, they think otherwise ... they just want to sound different ...



Come on lah, guys, grow up and be yourself ... Be a man ... Don't act act as you will lose even more .... it is really your luck if you meet a bitch like ME ... hahaha ...


**just a bitchy post by me ...

First interview ...

after a long long while ...

I never thought of going for an interview so soon as I just sent my resume to my galfriend ...

Anyway, I don't think I can make it though ... but it was indeed a good experience ... a few things for me to ponder about ...



Hope He has already a plan for me ... =)

"Tian mi mï" on 5 ...

Yes, it is how Tiramisu is known in chinese ...

Anyway, last night ...



Stev went to meet Sharon at her food stall.
Sharon told Stev that she didn't wish to be in his world but wanted to created a world of their own ...

So sweet ... and there ... Chao Kway Tiao in a western layout and red rose as deco ... =)

Both were happily chatting away ...
Sharon's phone rang ... asking her to leave for Europe TOMORROW ... this was her prize for being the winner of the contest ... to learn cooking in Europe for 3 years ...



Yes, they had justed started ...
Unable to take another blow (his mum promised to be back after she finished her cooking course but in the end, she didn't ... ), Stev asked Sharon to choose between the two - Him or Europe?!



Sharon was unwilling to leave ... though Master Gao and bro were already packing her stuffs into the car ... She didn't know whether to go or stay ... but her brother was right ... this was her dream ... and this was her father's dream ...



...............................................................................................



If you are Sharon, how will you choose?
One is your dream and one is your love ...
It is really unfair to ask her to choose ...


If I am Stev, I will definitely wait ...
and I am pretty sure he will also wait ...

Reality check ...

I guess I have enough fun last few years and it is time to really work hard ... I mean double hard ...

Being the only son, the only child @ home (my sister happily shifted out after her ROM :{), and on top of this, both my parents are getting old and retiring soon (can you imagine how big the difference in our age = 40 BIG years! ...), this leave me, all by myself, to support the whole family @ the age of 27 years old (4 more years to go). Pressure will be on me if I am still a lowly paid worker by then.



Can I survive?! Will I survive?!


I need to do something fast in 2006 ... I hope the upper authority will plan and give me direction ... I really hope so!

She is so GOOD ....

and I love her so much ... Opps, don't be mistaken, SHE is local singer, Tanya Chua.

I started to love her songs way back before she joined Warner Music but definitely not a hardcore fan though. Whenever I feel like listening to some songs, I will definitely think of her ... one of the few singers I perfer ... Not because I only have her albums, but her unique style of performing a song and her talent of composing / writing songs attract and touch me in some ways.

Or perhaps there is no specific reason at all. I simply like her, just like there is no reason why you fall for someone. ;) I always love to listen to her one and only English Album, Jupiter, launched when she was managed by Music and Movement. I was so worried and nearly freaked out when I could not find the CD this morning as it is no longer obtainable in the market and besides, it also serves some sentimental values to me, which both my first ex and I shared together ... ...


Top on the list (Highly recommended):
8th song, Day & Night

Chorus
So can I need you in my life?
Can I keep you close to me
Day & Night?
Can I need you forever?
I wanna have you close to me Day & Night


*Other recommended songs:
Drops of Jupiter, Two of Us, Sanctuary of Love, Lost

**Don't bother to borrow from me as I won't agree to it ... I am so sorry ... =P

Happy New Year ...

A quiet night to start off a brand new year ... ... Not bad ... and I begin to like it this way ... Perhaps I am not used to noisy, smokey and crowded area anyway ... I suppose this normal, busy, quiet life is much more suitable for me ... ;)

Hope 2006 will be a fruitful, peaceful and loving year for all ... also hope I can fulfill my new year's resolutions this year ...

1. Get a job ... 24/7
2. Club less ...
3. Less casual *** ... haha
4. Keep fit ... be fit ...
5. Spend more time with my mum ...
6. Be good to those who are good to me ...
7. Eat more, sleep more ...
8. Spend less, save more ...

*If there is someone, good ... If not, too bad ...

**Cross your fingers and hope for the best ... =P