So disappointed ...

The harder I try, the more my heart turns "cold".

I feel disappointed and lousy at this point of my life. It is so difficult to find true friends. Let alone finding my true love.

Am I giving up? Or am I just grumbling?

Is it my periodic mood swing? Or is it time for me to look for other forms of love in life?

I really don't know.

As for now, let me take a step at a time and hopefully, there is light very soon ...

You only have one chance ...

Simply put it this way, everyone lives once in this life (crossing out the fact that some of you may believe in coming back to this world again, with a different identity). You will have your sweet 18; getting your key at 21; an outstanding career and a wonderful family at 30; and of course, glooming to your fullest at 40 (This is what a book / movie always says ... haha).

There is a time for everything. Once you lose that one chance, perhaps you may not get a 2nd chance as nobody will CARE to give it to you. If you did get it, it may not be the same feeling, experience or even encounter that you had it the first time round.

No point of looking backwards but instead, grab hold of every chance and live your life to the fullest so you won't regret what you have or have not done ... =)

Do you have the time for a cup of coffee?! =)

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university lecturer. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life. Offering his guests coffee, the lecturer went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups: porcelain, plastic, glass, some plain-looking and some expensive and exquisite, telling them to help themselves to hot coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the lecturer said: "If you noticed, all the nice-looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the better cups and are eyeing each other's cups."

"Now, if Life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change."

"Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it."

So the moral of the story? Live a LIFE & drink more KOPI-O ... ... Ok?! =D

Sick ... AGAIN?

I was having flu and feeling cold in office. I guess it was because I was caught in the rain just now and got a cold from it.

Feeling terrible when I was on my way home by MRT. I thought I may get a seat but singaporeans are way too kiasu, therefore, I was needed to stand all the way from city hall to boon lay. =( What to do? The survival of the "FITTEST"! hahaha ...

Anyway, I am feeling much better now and I guess it is already time for bed so good night to you ...

My thoughts ...

The Lone Ranger and Tonto went camping in the desert. After they got their tent all set up, both men fell sound asleep.

Some hours later, Tonto wakes the Lone Ranger and says, "Kemo Sabe, look towards sky, what
you see?"

The Lone Ranger replies, "I see millions of stars."

"What does that tell you?" asked Tonto.

The Lone Ranger ponders for a minute then says, "Astronomically speaking, it tells me there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets. Astrologically, it tells me that Saturn is in Leo. Time-wise, it appears to be approximately a quarter past three in the morning. Theologically, it's evident the Lord is all-powerful and we are small and insignificant. Meteorologically, it seems we will have a beautiful day tomorrow. What's it tell you, Tonto?"

Tonto is silent for a moment, then says, "Kemo Sabe, you dumber then buffalo shit. Someone has stolen tent."

Without humor, life sucks. Without courage, life is hard. Without love, life is hopeless. Without friends, life is impossible.

What I have learnt:
Be humorous and stay brave.
Treat all friends with love.

How I wish ... ...

Last Friday, I was in my brother-in-law's car and the radio was playing David Tao's song, 爱，很简单. Memories and emotions started to come over me while I listened and watched the night scenery of Singapore.

Nice car, nice song, nice scenery, but I still couldn't find a nice person to be with me?! As sang by David Tao, we can find love easily. However, we can also lose it anytime.

How I wish the clock could tick backwards but before I go back in time, I hope I am given enough knowledge about love and the basic understanding of a person.

Am I greedy? Perhaps not. I am just hoping to amend the wrongs that have been done and to seek for a 2nd chance in the relationship so to be able to love each other to the fullest. So is this wrong?

"可惜不是你 陪我到最后 曾一起走却走失那路口 感谢那是你 牵过我的手 还能感受那温柔"
(It is such a pity that it is not you who accompany me to the end; we ever walked together but we lost each other at that junction; thank you for that is you who held my hand as which I could still feel the gentleness of your touch!) - 可惜不是你, Fish Leong

It will cause more unhappiness if you insist of keeping someone by your side for his heart is no longer with you. Though our memory will fade one day, but I am sure the love between the two of you will never go away.

Am I ...

You are a Leopard. You are the king of the jungle.
You prefer to live on your own. Your motto is:
"Survival Of The Fittest." You are
ferocious and nasty, and to not like to be
messed with.

http://quizilla.com/users/SaveTheAnimals/quizzes/What%20Animal%20Are%20You?

Some thoughts ...

THE CRICKET
Author Unknown
Sep 22, 2005

A Native American and his friend were in downtown New York City, walking near Times Square in Manhattan. It was during the noon lunch hour and the streets were filled with people. Cars were honking their horns, taxicabs were squealing around corners, sirens were wailing, and the sounds of the city were almost deafening. Suddenly, the Native American said, "I hear a cricket."

His friend said, "What? You must be crazy. You couldn't possibly hear a cricket in all of this noise!" "No, I'm sure of it," the Native American said, "I heard a cricket." "That's crazy," said the friend.

The Native American listened carefully for a moment, and then walked across the street to a big cement planter where some shrubs were growing.

He looked into the bushes, beneath the branches, and sure enough, he located a small cricket. His friend was utterly amazed.

"That's incredible," said his friend. "You must have super-human ears!" "No," said the Native American. "My ears are no different from yours. It all depends on what you're listening for." "But that can't be!" said the friend. "I could never hear a cricket in this noise." "Yes, it's true," came the reply. "It depends on what is really important to you. Here, let me show you."

He reached into his pocket, pulled out a few coins, and discreetly dropped them on the sidewalk. And then, with the noise of the crowded street still blaring in their ears, they noticed every head within twenty feet turn and look to see if the money that tinkled on the pavement was theirs.

"See what I mean?" asked the Native American. "It all depends on what's important to you."

I am happy that we are given FREE-WILL by God to do whatever we like in this world.

I can choose to speak to you and you can choose not to listen to me. But I guess it all comes down to doing the right thing and be humble to learn and accept advises with the right mind.

It is difficult to please everyone by doing/saying the things they like but the thing we can definitely do is to be genuine and open. =)

What you reap is what you sow?!

To lie one's heart on the line and give it to someone dear ... I guess one needs alot of thinking and courage before committing as there is way too much of risk, uncertainity and fear involved when it comes to relationship.

It is not as simple as "what you reap is what you sow". The outcome may be more surprising as you have excepted. So will it be better for one to be loved and get all the attention from the other? How often could we find that someone who is willing to give unconditionally? I guess it is rather difficult and rare in this world as all need love and wish to be loved. Therefore, we tend to be selfish and self-centred when it comes to LOVE (although I still believe that someone still exists).

There is always a saying, "the more you give, the more the return". It not only applies to the honeymoon period that both of you had gone through but also the thereafter result when both become strangers/friends/enemies when one relationship ended. The more you loved himin the past, the more you hate him after that.

Deleting his mobile number, email address, msn adress, pitures, etc = forgetting him and erasing every single detail of him in your memory?! If that is really the case, we should not even call ourselves human and I guess PC is the best word to describe us. Forgiving someone is not forgetting him completely, but "erasing" the things he had done to hurt you in the past. It may take one day, one week, one month, one year or even one decade to forgive and forget.

LOVE = no pain, no gain?! I don't have a definite answer to it now but I am sure of one thing, everyone in this world, including you, yes you, and me, needs LOVE ....

LUST = SLUT?

LUST is ... having an intense or obsessive desire, especially one that is sexual.

SLUT is ... a person considered sexually promiscuous, no matter you are a man or a woman in this present time.

So, LUST = SLUT?? (although you can re-arrange the word into becoming the other word ... haha =D)

Yes, it is true that everyone has the urge, the desire or the fantasy of wanting someone/something. However, what's yours is yours and what's not yours is not yours. It is as simple as that. Someone/something is only meant to be seen and not to be touched.

Why do you need to stand so lowly to get someone back? Why do you want to sleep around, just for one or two hours of pleasures, knowing that he/she will not be serious? It will even get out of hand if emotion comes in place, getting yourself hurt, both mentally and physically ... haha Anyway, it is up to you to decide on how to live your life, just don't get hurt! =D

As for my life, I am happy as what it is now. Have a nice weekend, my friends!

Be well soon!

This is what people wish you when you are not feeling well. Anyway, I am thankful I am feeling better now, ulcers and pimples are going away. But I guess I still need alot of rest and drink alot of water before I fully recover. =)

Cheers, it is Friday!

Not feeling good ... =(

I am not well and it has been a few days.


I have ulcers and pimples, looking sick and ugly.


Is it the hot weather? Is it the biscuits I have been eating? Or is it something else ... ...

Hope it is nothing serious ... I cross my fingers and pray!

REDS SUX BIG TIME!

Yes, yap, yeah ... I had my haircut @ REDS Taka yesterday. It had been few years since I was back in Taka Branch for my haircut as my hairstylist in Plaza Singapura quitted her job to take up make-up course. Good for her though but I have to look for a suitable hairstylist all over again. :(

Anyway, though I went for my haircut @ REDS Taka before, I was not really pleased with their services as they were simply too busy with other customers and you were sort of being neglected, so I thought they will change for the better after a few years.

But they didn't. Instead, they got WORSE! I went there 15 minutes late. (I am always late for appointments and always rushing for time ... haha ...) But don't you agree that customers should have the privilege to be late? haha ...

1. A while later after I settled down, a gal came by to wash my hair. She hurriedly wash my hair and rinsed them in less than 10 minutes. She was like she wanted to finish washing my hair fast and needed to go somewhere else. She had the not even started to work and thinking of knocking off attitude.
2. I thought the hairstyle was better. But he sux even more - he is definitely a AJ and one who was like he had been dumped by his BF last night. His face was as black as chacoal, not tanned ok but black haha. (He was the stylist who cut my hair when I was first there a few years back. I must say he looks better now but still got tummy though haha) He was damm careless or had no heart to cut attitude that he almost cut my ear. I was damm pissed off with him. At that point of time, I thought to myself that this will be my LAST visit to this branch. He then rinised my hair with COLD water and asked his lady assistant to style my hair. He said plainly to her that just style normally and that was not what I wanted. I told him straight to his face, in front of the lady that I wanted this way and he was really not pleased with it upon hearing it.
3. Luckily, this lady who styled my hair is a nice lady. I told her what I wanted and she said I could even style myself if I wanted as she was afraid she could not style the way I wanted. =) I asked her why my hairstylist's face was SO BLACK and she just laughed it off. :P

When the hairstylist came back to do the last inspection of my haircut, I simply showed him my attitude by not wanting to answer him and my pissed off face. When he wanted to show me how my haircut looked like from the back with a mirror, I simply said, NO NEED and I went to the cashier and paid. (Anyway, the receptionist suxed too!)

I really simply don't understand what is wrong with my hairstylist. If I am him, B****, who is so upset either with life, with work, with family, with lover or with yourself, I will just take leave or MC to stay at home to iron out my emotional. Why do I want to show my sickening face when serving my customers? Just be professional and not annoying.

I was in customer service line before and I understand how tiring and boring it could be as in working over the weekend. However, I will definitely not be like him. As for stepping into REDS Taka again, perhaps it will be in my next life if I have the chance to be in this world again.:P

Yeah ... TGIF!

Haha ... Sorry hor, it is already Saturday morning. Plainly too lazy and tired to write yesterday night. :P

Time really flies. It is 1st Oct 05, 3 more months before 2006 is here. The world is changing fast; the working environment is changing; even the people around me are changing. So are you changing? To an extend, changing is the process of growing up, becoming more mature and hopefully, to a better person. But growing up too fast doesnt mean it is good. This was what my friend had told me before.

For example, exploring/coming out at a young age tends to make more mistakes and you are uncertain of alot of things. But of course, it has its pro. You will definitely be more mature than your peers. Llike I said before, human tends to learn from the hard way, just that don't grow up too fast, enjoy every single moment of your life and learn from the process.

Taking a slower pace in life gives you more time to reflect and think about your life. But don't get too comfortable of your own life that you don't dare to take a step forward. =) I am still learning myself. Anyway, waiting for the right thng/the right one isn't as bad as what we think. There is also a time for somthing/someone. Perhaps you are not ready for it/him at this moment. [You know what I mean, EYE-Z? =)]You need to give before you can get.

Even grooming yourself needs TIME, this is what Lesile told me over lunch yesterday and I totally agree with him as there is no free lunch in this world. haha Therefore, it is time for me to go have a haircut ... haha =) Hope I will like my hairstyle this time round. =D